How can he be the only human being on this planet who doesn't feel lonely? He doesn't want me, or anyone else, and hasn't for nearly a year now. Does he never feel the need to be held? Doesn't he want someone by his side, someone who understands him? If this desire to be part of someone else is a universal human one, why doesn't he have it? Why have I fallen in love with the only man on the planet who seems incapable of love?

His brother is desperately lonely. You'd think being that close to the emotion would awaken it in him. He says I am his closest friend, that he can't talk to anyone like he can talk to me. Is that where it ends? Is that enough?

Right now, I seem to be entrancing every guy around me. All my other male friends are making pronouncements of love to me, or at least acting like they want to. Why is he the only person so immune to me? Why won't he love me?